moccy

Animelo Summer Live 2008

2009-04-27T15:11:13Z

This show is really spectacular!!! I wish I could be part of the show!! Gotta reserve ticket to Japan just to attend the 2nd day when JAM Project showed up. I really want to jump out and scream along the crowd:

"I CAN FLY! YOU CAN FLY?! WE CAN FLY!! MOTTO MOTTO!"

This year, AAA got their first performance at Animelo, and they sang Climax Jump and Zero, 2 of my favorite AAA songs. Zero's dance is very cool! Love it! But Avex really had bad taste in costumes. Bulky clothes and feathers everywhere... Nissy, what the heck were you wearing on you hair? It's totally fine for the girls, but Nissy?? Oh my... Nevertheless, their performance was perfect. Despite of their boyband-ish looks, AAA showed that they really had the talent.

Granrodeo also made their first appearance. To be honest, I prefer Granrodeo much more than Takahashi Naozumi... sorry Nao-nii... ^^;; Akino and her brothers (Bless4) also deserved to be there. Sousei no Aquarion was one of the most memorable anime song ever.

This is the first time I heard Chihara Minori. I've been wondering what her voice is like since her debut as a singer is successful. Well, she indeed sings well. Her duet with Masami Okui on Rinbu Revolution is outstanding, probably the best Rinbu-Revolution duet.

Arika-san (Ali Project) and Mizuki Nana kept their promise to do a duet again, this time on Nana-chan's Eternal Blaze. Arika-san missed the start and made a mistake on the reff, but she apologized at the end. Somehow she looked more loli than Nana-chan... These two really has a chemistry, even their taste of costumes also alike... *LOL*

On the second day, Masami Okui was absent due to some health issue. There was really something missing with JAM Project without the girls. Hironobu-san tried to present Makkun by tattooing the kanji "OKUI" on his arm, but the kanji "OKU" washed off by his sweat.. LOL.. Nevertheless, JAM Project really burned the crowd.

Ishikawa Chiaki and Yonekura Chihiro sang Anna ni Issho Datta no Ni and Arashi no Naka de Kagayaite. Powerful voices, powerful songs... These women never aged, their stamina is truly amazing.

Arrgh, I want the DVD badly!!!

Resting all day

2009-04-26T13:08:57Z

Writing for goodness

2009-04-25T15:06:59Z

Yesterday, a local talkshow broadcast invited some truly amazing people who suffered rare syndromes which attacked the neural system. Many of them were told by their doctors to regulary writing to keep their neural system active. I then realized, it has been a long time since I last write my mind out. I was a regular writer and quite well-known as a good fiction writer. My teacher, friends, and parents thought I would be a writer, but as I immersed myself in the world of internet, I became less active in writing, until finally I stopped. I even stopped blogging since I was too lazy. The last time I wrote something was for the NTU's written essay.

But the impact is real. My brain was slower in processing words I sometimes lost with what I was going to say. I had the idea in my head but unable to express it in words, be it in Bahasa or English. I think faster than I speak and sometimes I was unable to arrange the words properly unless my brain was at its peak. I was quite shocked by this fact. I wonder, where were my ability in words gone? Yesterday's talkshow gave me an instant realization of the importance of writing, especially a journal. I'm not really a journal writer, because journal should be short and informal, but once I wrote, I just couldn't stop and my style of writing was always formal. The writings always felt like an essay. To be honest, I truly enjoy writing, be it an email, journal, or essay.

Nonetheless, now I realize how important a journal is to keep the track of our daily routinity. As I read some of my diary entries from high school (which I wrote for only a short period), I found it's very nostalgic as I almost forgot those old good days and what I was years ago.

Today I've come with a resolution. I must conquer my laziness and start writing a daily journal. Since I think and wrote faster than I speak, especially in English, I want to try speaking out my mind as I write to improve the fluency in English. I know I have the ability; it was once awaken but I put it into a long, deep sleep for years, and it needs to be awaken once more for good. This entry marks the first step of this resolution. I'm not expecting many people reading my journal, but I'd like to share my thoughts, just in case this might be helping those who share the same problem.

Contradiction,, Paradox.. Dillema.. you name it..

2008-11-08T14:41:00Z

In an episode of Junjou Romantica, little Nowaki often ran away from his house crying in frustration to nearby park (which later became his hideout with Usami). When Usami asked the reason why he's crying, Nowaki said that he's sick and tired of his extra courses. He wanted to stop, but he just couldn't bear the shame of being fail so he tried hard to succeed. Still, when he succeeded, he felt challenged to achieve the next level, thus put him into a never-ending dillema.

When I watched this episode I couldn't understand Nowaki's way of thinking and simply laughed at him. Nowaki had a quite high pride so his childhood situation was understandable, but I still thought this circumstance was only in a fiction. If you couldn't go on, why don't you just stop?... Right?

Wrong.

:)

I think I started to understand him. Although I'm not a perfectionist or genius like Nowaki and my circumstance is totally different, but we share the same pride.

In our System Development team, only few remains. Those who left were key person, so their leaving put a lot of works to those who stayed behind. The Operational Director, who is my direct upline, asks me indirectly to be PIC of this team. This means I have to start learning some crucial systems left by their key person from scratch, while business and system's development has to go on. This is not just the director's burden, it becomes mine as well.

There are times I want to stop -not because I can't but I don't want to get out from the comfort zone. I can find another company just like my friends did, but some part of my pride told me to take this chance to learn how to survive in a chaos. I've been too long in this comfort zone I sometimes asked myself whether I have this survival ability or not. The responsibilities are getting bigger and I don't have enough capability to face it alone, but this is my chance to learn. Of course there are prices to be paid.. I have to work overtime (without being paid), have a lot of works waiting, etc. There are times I felt tired and think about stopping, but my pride wants to keep going.

A contradicting dillema?
I must say yes.
Stop now?
No, for the moment, until the point I finally give up.

moccy @ 2008-11-02T07:29:00

2008-11-02T00:21:14Z

Most of the time God gives us answers to our doubts indirectly, in the way we've never expected before.

This is what I've learned over and over, because sometimes when my heart was so far from God, my mind was also very dull and forgot that everything happened had a reason -that is, the answer to our questions.

I have this doubt since 2 years ago, that is to study abroad. I was planning to take a postgraduate study abroad, find a job there, and apply a PR. For a grown-up my age, living together with parents and older siblings makes me unable to live independently. I want to break free and test my own survival ability. Also, if something happened in this country, at least there is a relative living overseas my family can go to for a shelter.

As I started the preparation by choosing a destination, preparing the language, and so on, my doubt increased. No matter how bad I want to go, I still can't leave my parents. I feel too selfish thinking of my own matter and not thinking about them. Although I've been working for 5 years, my saving probably is not enough for paying the living cost and I still need to rely on my parents' money. I also can't bear a thought of hearing a bad news about my family here at the time when I can't be with them. My Mom was my closest person and I'm my Mom's. I can't imagine how to be separated so far not only in term of time but also distance.

I often asked my friends, which one you will choose: parents or good career/future ?
One of my friends choose parents. I too think that career can be sought but nothing will ever replace parents and family. I kept praying for answers, and finally I think I know the answer.

The current global economic crisis is God's answer.
Last year's appendictomy was also a sign for an answer.

If I didn't undergo a surgery last year, most likely I'd been in Singapore or somewhere in Europe/America studying.
If I was currently overseas, I would get the impact of economic crisis and couldn't get what I wished for: a job.
My parents would be troubled thinking how to pay the tuition and living costs since foreign exchange rate rocketed.

So the answer: it's not the right time to go overseas.
Maybe later, maybe not, well, whatever God's plan is I'm sure it's the best for me.

So, if I finally find my answer, how about you? :)

Saint Beast Others Party

2008-08-25T15:57:50Z

Be blessed those who uploaded Saint Beast Others Party at Tudou.com!!!! Kyaaaaaaa! This show is loaded with my top-fave seiyuus: Nojima Kenji, Chiba Susumu, Suzuki Chihiro. Initially I just want to watch NojiKen singing Boku no Meiro live, but can't help but become instant fan of Kishio Daisuke, Mizushima Takahiro, Rikiya Koyama, and Kosugi Juurota-sama.

The show itself, well, compared to the main Saint Beast Party, is quite so-so. It has a lot of talks, and I don't even know very well what game is being played. But it's so fun to see those seiyuus throwing jokes so naturally, sooo cute and lively. DaiSaku and Mizushima seems to enjoy the whole show very much. I was quite surprised to see DaiSaku's original character which is quite contrary with most of his roles, but can't help but love him.

Never thought of Rikiya Koyama being this lively and fun. Seeing his real character, no wonder he can do such a silly role like the Shinigami-sama (Soul Eater). The way he forgot his line on the live drama, and then wearing the pink usagi-mimi are totally adorable!! *LOL* Chiba is also very adorable wearing the neko-mimi. It suits him perfectly.

As for NojiKen, well, as a fan I really love seeing him on this kind of event but it seems he's quite nervous even though he's used to perform live with Beloved. He's doing good at the live drama but not at the free talk. He didn't initiated the talk often, only talked on his turn. Nevertheless, Noji-kun, I love you very much.. :) Especially when you're doing the "NYA~~N" pose while wearing the Chiba's nekomimi *nosebleed*

For the live songs, NojiKen is doing awesome. Although he seems to push his voice quite hard reaching the high tones, his voice is truly powerful. The melody flowed so beautifully we can forgive some of those pitch error. Next performance was Mizushima, wearing his pink bunny ears. I wasn't a fan of him before but seeing him enjoying his song very much together with DaiSaku made me instantly fall in love with those two. Koyama is equally good, his expression matched the song nicely. Chiba appeared wearing his neko-mimi and occasionally doing some "NYAAAA!" pose *dies* His singing is good, almost at the same quality as the CD. Kosugi-sama's song suits his charismatic aura perfectly and the song is quite addicting, too.

But the star of this event is Chi-chan. Since watching PKO, I wasn't quite a fan of Chi-chan singing and stage performance. But I'm totally in love with his performance here. Oh that hair and those outfit matched him very well!!! He looked soooo kakkoiii and manly, a truly bishonen! He really ruled the stage that night and made the audience screamed like crazy. I'm stunned with his stamina, doing all the screaming between the singing and jumping around the stage but still managed to reach high tones strongly, considering his skinny figure. Chi-chan is getting more good-looking recently. On "Viva Tales of" talk (hosted by Onosaka Masaya, can be viewed at Youtube), he looked sooooooo handsome, reminds me a lot of Takeru Satoh. Hopefully Tales of Abyss anime becomes a hit, so Chi-chan has more opportunity appearing on magazines or interviews.

Another Regime, Expecting Some Miracles

2008-08-09T12:33:03Z

Yesterday I finally got the credit card bill... I am really broke this month. I already spent quite a lot for hair treatment products last month, and in the same time, almost the whole Sekkisei products were empty. I didn't feel like being loyal to Kose since I still suffer breakouts. I was considering several Japanese brands such as Shiseido, Kanebo and SK-II. Not because I'm a fan of Japan so I tend to choose their cosmetics, but I feel their products suits my skin better than Western products. I've tried L'oreal, L'occitane, Nivea, and even local products Belia and Biokos, but none worked well.

Skin Condition
My skin is acne-prone, combination to oily skin, lots of acne scars, huge pores, sensitive, dehydrated, and whiteheads prone especially on cheek and forehead. In search of a good acne cures, I put everything with good reviews on my face, and even dared myself to buy expensive skincare lines, expecting some miracles. By trial and error, I can finally understand my skin but still can't find a truly satisfying result. A month ago I got skin check at an event and the result stated my skin was oily but dehydrated and started to loose it's soft texture. My friend who a Sekkisei user also got the same dehydrated result, so we agreed that we need to change our skincare.

Selection Process

1. Shiseido
I was considering Shiseido because I've been using their powdery foundation and it's quite gentle to my skin (but I've changed to Revlon Softlex --my HG foundation so far-- since the powdery foundation gives chalky results during the day as the skin started to become oily). My friend said her sister used The Skincare line and it's very gentle. Their toner/lotion also got good ravings. The Skincare series is meant for the

2. Kanebo
Kanebo's product segmentation is quite unique. They have several level of lines, which after your skin adapted to a suggested line, you can 'upgrade' to a higher line. A year ago, before finally choosing Sekkisei, I was suggested Freya (the lightest one) and continued with Red Blanchir (whitening series). They said their lotion had the same function as the infamous SK-II's Miracle Water. Kanebo is definitely more famous here than Kose, so I'm thinking to give this product a try.

3. SK-II
It's quite a bet to try this brand. Some had great improvement, some had breakouts, and some said nothing happened. Some of my colleagues tried this and they fall into those who got the magic. Unlike the other brand who has so much series targetting different skin types, SK-II products are mainly for all skin type so it's quite easy to pick the basic treatment. Their magic ingredient is Pitera, somekind of yeast extract found in sake. There is a tale behind this Pitera thing, I'm too lazy to type it down since uncle Google can provide it.. *grin* The downside, SK-II is bloody expensive, compared with the other Japanese skincares.

The Experiments

1. Shiseido
When I passed by Shiseido counter at Kuala Lumpur, I saw this starter kit of The Skincare. It contains the cleanser, toner (softener), and morning moisturizer (SPF15). The cleanser gives a squeaky feels and leaves the skin clean but not tight. The softener is a gel-based toner with pleasant, calming smell that truly softened the skin and preparing it for further treatment. The moisturizer is indeed hydrating but too rich for me. It gives a glossy finish, so I need to let it sink perfectly before applying foundation.

I loved the cleanser and softener. The moisturizer is quite pleasant but for a moisturizer with only SPF15 it's still too rich. Sekkisei Day Essence is a step richer but it has SPF30. The whole basic treatment is indeed gentle and calming, but did nothing else except hydrating. For such an expensive product, I expect more. At least Sekkisei indeed brightened my face although it couldn't save my skin problem. Since I'm running out of day moisturizer, I continue to use the moisturizer.

2. Kanebo
When I passed by a Kanebo counter last week, they were selling the limited starter pack of Red Blanchir. I asked the BA whether this product contains alcohol and she said unlike Sekkisei, Red Blanchir doesn't contain alcohol at all. When she applied the lotion to the back of my hand, there's a sharp smell of alcohol. She said that wasn't alcohol but the smell of red fruit extract (the main ingredients of Red Blachir series). I restated several times that alcohol breaks my skin but she kept saying no. When I asked for any leaflets describing the ingredients, she said they didn't have that. There were 2 packs: one with full-sized lotion + night moisturizer (sample size) + cleanser (sample size) + 2 sheets of mask; one with sample sized sunblock + lotion + day moisturizer + cleanser. The BA suggested to take the one with full-sized lotion. She also suggested to take the Blanchir smoothers for large pores and claimed the next morning after application, all of whiteheads would popped out and left the pores clean.

The cleanser is good and leaves the skin soft and clean. But the toner indeed reeks of alcohol. The moment I patted the lotion-soaked cotton, my face reddened like crazy, worse than Sekkisei lotion. There's no way I can continue this product so I decided to return it the next day and planned to take the other package. But when I repacked everything, I saw a nice sticker at one side of the package stating the ingredients of the toner. The first major ingredient is water, and followed by alcohol! What a darn! Alcohol is the second major ingredients! I showed the BA, but she kept saying that all products for oily skin must have alcohol and no claim from the other customer. When I peeked the other box, the day moisturizer turns out to have the same ingredients, so I decided to take the white Blanchir mask as a replacement. I'm VERY VERY STUPID not to ask for money back since this mask, which is more expensive than the Blanchir pack, and turns out to give no result! The smoother also didn't work at all. I'm finished with Kanebo. I feel so cheated I never ever wished to try it again.

3. SK-II
SK-II has this essential kit contains small-sized cleanser, clear lotion (AHA toner), and Facial Treatment Essence (FTE) aka Miracle Water, which contains 90% Pitera which claimed to balancing the skin and evening out skin tone. This kit is for approximately 1 month usage (but it's been 3 weeks and mine were still half-empty). I was crossing my fingers while applying this products and dare not to rave any good/bad effects since they said the 'miracle' will show up after 28 days (following the skin renewal cycle).

I fell in love instantly with the cleanser. It cleanses well and leaves the skin soft like the other cleansers did, but the sensation is different. My friends who then tried this kit seconds this sensation. As for the clear lotion, unlike the other toner/balancer, it didn't irritate my skin and makes it regain it's clean and healthy glow (I guess it thanks to the AHA). I love this lotion so much I bought the full-sized. The FTE sinks into the skin fast and makes it prepared for the next treatment.

After 3 weeks of using, my face is getting better. It's glowing, supple, and smooth. At the first application, small whiteheads appears on forehead and some pimples on neck, but it dried out after 2 weeks. My face also cleared up. Some weekly pimples still came by but nothing significant. I only use BP occasionally when new pimples appeared (before, I have to apply all-over the face day-night to prevent pimples). I've never felt my face this good. SK-II saves my skin.

But this basic treatment doesn't do anything to my acne scar or skintone. They have another series for whitening purpose but bloody expensive! I wish I can get the samples but almost all skincare products didn't giveaway the samples freely. Even after you spend millions Rupiah buying their products, you can get high blood pressure asking for some gifts/samples from the BA. So in the meantime I rely on the remaining Sekkisei products to help my skin brighter.

My face was also still moderately oily. I wish to try their Clear Solution who claims to reduced up to 56% the oiliness. But again, I wish for samples first.. *lol*

Regime
So this is my current regime:

DAY:
Neutrogena Acne Wash + SK-II Cleanser
--> Neutrogena clears the white/blackheads, thanks to its BHA content, but dried out skin. SK-II softened the skin but didn't strong enough to get rid those whiteheads, so I combine the two cleansers
SK-II Clear Lotion
SK-II FTE
Estee Lauder Advanced Skin Repair (wrinkles, begone!)
Shiseido The Skincare moisturizer
Revlon Softlex Foundation (combination skin)
MUFE Super Matte Loose Powder --> it's so expensive and dries out skin, so I'm planning to replace it with other brand when it's empty.

NIGHT:
Neutrogena Acne Wash + SK-II Cleanser
SK-II Clear Lotion
SK-II FTE
Sekkisei Essence Excellent
Estee Lauder Advanced Skin Repair
Sekkisei Emulsion (left-over)

Weekly Treatment:
Aspirin + Honey mask (2x)
Seikisho White Mask (1-2x), applied only to whitehead prone area
Kanebo Blanchir mask (1x), applied all over the face

Dark Night.. very dark indeed...

2008-07-21T14:53:50Z

If you're looking for a superhero movie with great tech and gadgets used in great action, then you might want to try Dark Knight.

But if you're looking for a glorious, happy end superhero movie, then skip this one.
And also if you have weak heart or can't handle horror, this is not for you.

The first comment me and my friends spoke after the movie ended were: "Scary!!! Are we watching horror?"
Well, thanks to the villain, Joker, this Batman movie feels more like horror. Everything from the beginning until end was dark: the setting, the plot, the story, everything.

Joker is creepy, his actions are unpredictable, and all of us were shocked at the scene where the fake batman appeared in front of an office glasswall. He's genius, but in very sadistic way, thus makes this film scary.

I have low tolerance to horror, thus still feel a little bit creepy. Hopefully this night I won't dream about Joker. The death of Heath Ledger doubled the creepiness.... brrr...

In search for a hair savior....

2008-07-20T14:40:40Z

Finally, the annual bonus arrived at my account (as well as my colleagues') so I can start a new journey, this time in search for a savior to my dry, brittle, dull, frizzy, lifeless, weakened hair. My hair was originally curly but frizzy and rebelious. If I let my hair air-dried, hours later it would be a total mess, so I decided to always blow-dried it. I often envied those who had straight hair, so I even bought flatting iron. Because of these heat, my hair became really dry so I thought it would be nothing to lose to color it. It also troubled me when choosing a good hair style. Cutting it short will make the frizz more rebelious, but growing it long takes more time to style.

2 weeks ago, my stylist decided to cut me medium-short because my hair was very dry while the scalp was oily so long hair wouldn't be a good choice. Well, it did give me hard time controlling the frizz. The L'Oreal Elseve Nutri Gloss mask didn't give a result at all (the Anti-Frizz one still works better), so I decided to step a little advanced by searching for any suitable Kerastase product. I know the price would be killing me, but I have no choice.

So finally Kerastase BA recommended these for me:

1. Kerastase Noctogenist Voile Nuit
This overnight leave-in serum nourishes the environmental fine, damaged hair. It's as light as water. I was curious if this would weighed my hair the next day, but soon after the first time of usage, my hair become shiny, bouncy, and controllable. Not sticky at all! It's an amazing serum like no others. Also love the pleasant smell.

2. Kerastase Age Recharge Masque.
Buying this masque is trully a pain to my wallet, but it worths every penny. It's said to gives back vitality to weakened hair. Because it's gel-based, it doesn't weighed the hair down or makes it greasy. Unlike L'Oreal masques, it also didn't leave any residue so my hair feels so fresh and clean.

3. Kerastase Nutri-Sculpt & Nutri-defense
These were the first Kerastase products I bought. Nutri-sculpt is a gel foundation so help fixed the hair style while nourishing it. Nutri-defense is a shine-enhancer spray to give a shiny and healthy finish. Honestly I didn't feel any major benefit from these but using them altogether with the other 2 gives maximum result.

4. Kerastase Thermal-Protection
The BA suggested this for me since I always blow-dried my hair. The protective agent was activated by heat to protect and nourish the hair. Among all Kerastase products reviewed at MUA, only this get almost all the marks. Hence, I decided that this should be my most-have.

These treatments gives an instant result. My hair is no longer dry and brittle. It's gradually regain the shine. It also becomes so smooth and bouncy I had to prevent running my hands through it.. *LOL* It also regain its natural wave. In short, those products altogether worths every penny. A truly savior for my hair.

Recently I also crazed in using Japanese hair products. Started with Lucido-L hair color I got in Singapore. The color are pretty and natural. The creamy solution was velvet-colored when applied to hair and didn't even changed after washing. It felt like the hair was coated while changing color. It left a pleasant smell and soft, shiny hair. I'm totally in love with this product and wish to buy a bunch when visiting Singapore again.

I also use Lucido's hair wax. It's odorless, non-sticky, has little holding style, and increases the shine. There are several types that varies in it's holding power and shine.

For the shampoo, I recently in love with Shiseido Tsubaki shampoo. It's definitely not cheap, but you get a big 500ml bottle that comes with a pump. Only small usage can clean the hair thoroughly, leaves it clean and soft with relaxing floral smell. Even my Mom loves it.

Waiting for boarding time

2007-12-23T22:22:54Z

My plane will depart to Singapore at 6.30 A.M, but we had arrived at the airport 2 hours earlier, anticipating for flood along the airport toll. Thank God the weather is so fine. No heavy rain and no flood at all. We arrived safely at the airport.

I'm now waiting at the Emerald Sky Lounge. Well, this lounge is WAY better than the previous one. The food is much delicious and well-cooked. We have chicken porridge, ayam semur, bubur kacang hijau, sandwich, juices, and fruits. The internet is also functioning well. In short, we are all satisfied with the lounge service.

Still 50 minutes to boarding time...

Sinful Indulgence

2007-11-25T08:05:23Z

Today is HOT!!! Scorching HOT! Even the 16-degree AC doesn't help at all!

I rarely spent my weekends home. Usually I hang out with sis and her son to any malls in the town. As for today, I ask for a 'break' as I want to manage the unorganized files and folders on my PC. But, GAH!! It's freaking hot today! So I took a cold bath, put a comfortable Bali shirt, sit down in front of my computer, and eating my sinful indulgence: a pint of BEN & JERRY'S DMB MAGIC BROWNIES ICE CREAM.

This is my first time eating a home-made American ice cream. Ben & Jerry's is one of the most famous home made ice cream with lots of flavors available. I chose Cherry Garcia, DMB Magic Brown, and Phish Food. DMB is definitely the winner, it's a combination of refreshing raspberry ice cream swirled with sweet ice cream and fudgy brownies. The sweet and slightly salty brownies balance the sweetness of the raspberry very well, creating a melting magic inside your mouth! I really have to restrain myself from finishing the whole pint at a time.

Cherry Garcia is supposed to be everyone's favorite.. well, I agree that I've never tasted vanilla ice cream this good and the cherry plus chocolate flakes are truly refreshing, but compared with the magical brownies, this is not that special anymore. Phish Food is my least fave. The gooey marshmallow and caramel makes the chocolate ice cream too sweet for my taste.

I'll definitely order another DMB Brownies when I finished this one.. :)

My Acne Regimen

2007-07-24T06:59:43Z

I promised to review my current acne regimen when I feel improvement on my skin. My complexion does greatly improved but I still can't stop the growth of new acnes. I'm quite satisfied with the current regimen, but I'm still searching for a better method to maximize the result.

These are what I'm currently using for the regime:
Cleansing: L'oreal Gentle Cleansing Milk, Neutrogena Oil-Free Acne Wash
Exfoliate: baking soda
Toner: ACV (30:70 mix with water), Tea Tree Oil
Mask: 1 tbsp egg-white whipped with some drops of lemon juice
Acne treatment: Oxy 5% Benzoyl Peroxide, Garnier Pure SOS Blemish Clear Pen
Moisturizer: Kose Moisture Skin Repair, Kose Sekkisei line (Lotion, Emulsion, Day Essence)

Will try: L'occitane 100% Pure Shea Butter

Night:
I will start from night treatment since this takes the longest time.

1. I clean my face using L'oreal cleansing milk and massage itu gently in upward circular motion and then wipe it with tissue.

2. For exfoliating, I use a pinch of baking soda and some drops of water, massage it with the tip of fingers gently (if you're doing it too rough or using too much BS, it feels stingy) paying attention of blackheads/whiteheads prone areas, and then wash it with lukewarm water.

3. I finish the cleasing with Neutrogena Acne Wash, pat my face dry with towel, and then apply ACV toner. I was applying ACV using cotton pad, but now I prefer applying it directly using hands and massage it lightly focusing on whitehead prone area. I can see some of the dead skins got off and the pores become clean. I leave it for about 10 minutes and then wash it off with lukewarm water.

4. I never forget to use the egg-white mask. I use it right away after showering while my face is still moist and the pores are still half-opened. Leave the mask for 10 minutes and wash it with cold water. My face felt really clean and soft. The red marks are also diminished.

5. After that I start the moisturizing steps. When my face was proned with whiteheads or acnes, I usually used the BP first, followed by Kose Skin Repair, Lotion, and Emulsion. These 2 days I started using the TTO first before BP and the result is very satisfactory. The whiteheads, pimples, and red marks diminished the next morning. After applying emulsion, I dab the acnes with TTO again and Garnier Clear Pen.

Morning:
Since I need fast treatment on morning, I only use Neutrogena Acne wash and ACV toner for the cleansing, and then BP and Kose Lotion + Day Essence (since it has SPF25++). I always bring the clear pen everyday and apply it several times to my acnes. It works so fast and good in reducing inflammation.

I started to drink lemon juice everyday. I mix juice from 1 lemon to 2 litre of water and drink it all day long. They said lemon juice can help reducing acne marks.

The Don'ts:
1. NEVER EVER touch the face with your finger. Finger and nail is evil!! Really evil!! Last week, I was tempted to scratch and popped some whiteheads on my cheeks, and the next day the pimples spread like hell all over my jawlines.

2. Don't let your hair fall on the face. I felt big improvement on my face when I tied my hair. Last week I let my hair loose and the tips touched my jawlines and new pimples appeared the next day.

3. Don't eat too many foods high in GI, sugar, and fat.

4. Never pop a pimple/whiteheads before the white head appeares and inflammation reduced.

The Do's:
1. Do pop your pimples, but steam your face first to open the pores. Use extractor or tissue and try stretching the pimple gently. Well, if there's no other way sometimes I do squeeze a little to drain it but it leave a deep red mark. After draining the pimple, apply anti-septic quickly on the pimple to disinfect it. I use TTO and it heals the pimples fast.

2. Do steam your face and remove the whiteheads using extractor regulary. I only did it yesterday and apply TTO all over my face. Today my whiteheads are reduced significantly.

This treatment makes my complexion clearer and the white mask reduced my enlarged pores. Due to my oily but dehydrated skin, I used to apply face powder several times during the day, but this time I only use the basic loose powder and it stays on my face all day long. The oil in my face looks normal and natural.

The only cons for this regimen is that it makes your skin TOTALLY DRY! That's why I need a good hydrating moisturizer, in which I finally choose Kose Sekkisei lines. This skincare lines is BLOODY EXPENSIVE, but you can see and feel the result rightaway, none like the other "hydrating" moisturizer (I was using Hydrafresh line from L'oreal and it didn't help at all).

Recently I'm suffering cracks on lips, eyelids, and area around eyes. I'm considering L'occitane Shea Butter since many reviews said it can heals dryness EVERYWHERE (hands, lips, face, cracked heel) and even scars/acne marks and it's so natural.

Sometimes face treatment doesn't need to be expensive but finding good over-the-counter product is not easy. Sadly, most of good and safe (less-irritating) products are expensive. Everyone has different type of skin. A cheap product can be good for some people, but very irritating for some others. As for me, although Kose is very expensive, but it gives a visible result and I can use it up to 5-6 months, while some product may only last 3 months.

moccy @ 2007-06-27T23:37:00

2007-06-27T17:02:50Z

Never in my life I've ever thought about writing beauty treatment.. *lol*

Lately, I've been into researching information regarding skins. I got acne problem all over my faces. Last year the break out started terribly after I got back from Puncak and it attacked my forehead severely. I changed my skincare line to L'oreal Hydrafresh + Purezone toner (containing Salicyl Acid) + WhiteBalance serum to eliminate the black spots. At first the products seems to work "fine", in terms of reducing the amount of break out, but didn't stop the break out itself. Fresh acnes rose everyday and I got desperated of it. My mom told me to go to doctor but I tend to avoid doctor treatment. I got the chemical peeling treatment before. The instant effect was painful but after I stopped using the doctor's medication, the break out started again.

So the disaster on my forehead continued until one day I found out from the internet that BAKING SODA (yes, the one you use for baking cakes) is a powerful and cheap skin care. Forget the scrubs, replace it with baking soda. At the first use it was very itchy and stingy but I was a little rough in combating the forehead break out. I always used it together with the cleasing foam and rubbed it gently especially to my forehead. After bathing, I put a small amount of BS on my forehead and let it dried for a minute and washed it off. I then use Oxy 5% (containing Benzoyl Peroxide) on my forehead. Well, it was quite satisfying. My forehead was clean right now, only the spots remains.

My problem now is with the remaining acne. Something is just not right because new acne keeps coming everyday. Based on some user reviews, I decided to change the cleasing foam to Neutrogena Oil-Free Acne Wash. Some said it might irritate the skin because of the salicyl acid, but I found this product very helpful. I use Oxy all over my faces after washing and it feel a little bit tight and sometimes flaky, though. Yesterday I bought Garnier Anti-Blemish Pen because many said it works instantly. I completely agree! I applied the gel on a new, painful acne and it dried out the next morning.

Today, I read at an acne forum about some ritual to clean the face. I decide to follow this and see the result within 5 days. I won't share the rituals before I see the result myself.

One of the ritual was to apply a tablespoon of egg-white (whipped) + a squeeze of lemon and then apply it all over the faces and leave it for 10 minutes. Wash off after that and apply the acne cream.

I did it just now, and the result is amazing. You can see instantly that your skin is glowing and no flakes at all, although I just exfoliate my skin with baking soda. The skin felt a litte bit tight but it's really smooth and glazy. I will stick on this treatment.

For the next target, I want to look for 100% Jojoba Oil, since many said it works greatly for reducing acne marks. I also want to switch my powder to mineral powder but it is hard to find here.

So girls and woman, this is just my sharing...
I will see the treatment in a week. If it's getting better, I will surely let you know.. :)

OSU! Iro-iro na koto

2007-06-26T16:25:13Z

Gee, it's been 39 weeks since the last posting. LJ has been terribly slow to be accessed these days.. ah well, that's not the main problem actually. As usual, I woke up at 5.a.m. and get home by 10.00 p.m. (spending the evening @fitness centre or English class or movies). After browsing some sites for daily BL nutrition, I go to sleep.

Today was the presentations of the two web vendors invited by the company I'm working at. While discussing about the layout management system, I suddenly remembered the Pitas blog. Pitas has a simple and effective ways in managing layouts and suddenly I missed my blog@Pitas which I've abandoned for a year. There are many compliments on my shoutbox, and I started to miss writing blog again. Well, I think if I could write a small essay for the TOEFL writing section in 20 minutes, I should be able to spend 10 minutes of my time before bed to write something here. I keep convincing myself "It's not necessarily long. Try to write something shorter." and here it is.. hopefully this can help me getting accustomized writing English, too.

Recently, especially after taking TOEFL course, I'm into learning English very much. I'm taking conversation class after the TOEFL class ended, and I'm also planning to take Business English class. It'll take 2 of my 4 fitness day, so I should think about fitness over aikido... Gomen ne, Sensei.. I think I should postpone the practise again, or taking another practise which suit my schedule best.

After the presentation today, I went to MTA to watch Shrek 3. Dunno, somehow I felt more satisfied with F4 2. Well, Shrek was entertaining, but somehow it didn't leave strong impression to me. The most interesting in this movie is the Puss, of course, and the message Fiona delivered to all women to stand up and survive by ourselves and not depending on some princes to save us. Way to go, Fiona!

Had dinner tonight @Thai Express... their pandan chicken was very chunky and delicous! The papaya salad was a disappointment (uh, well, maybe it's just not my taste), Thai Ice Tea was too sweet, and the Mango Glutinous Rice was too pricey (Rp 22.5k for half-sliced small mango and tiny portion of rice). I think I should give a try for this desert @Honeymoon Desert.

Fish n Co's doesn't have swordfish collar! Geh! I've been dreaming about this dish for a long time, though. I must try it when I go to Singapore (sometimes) .. :D

Regarding seiyuus, I think I should start giving a try for Toochika Kouichi. He's often on the drama CDs I listened but mostly for minor role. He has such a potential for a promising seiyuu, so I want to look for the drama with him as the main role.

I've been thinking.. should I post the same entries to my journals (pitas, friendster, LJ)?
I've been rambling about BL on LJ, personal, serious matters on FS, and fangirling mode on Pitas.
Well, I think I can mix them altogether or separate them, depends on the audience target. *grin*

ZE review pt. 2

2006-09-24T14:07:52Z

Finally, the 2nd part of ZE review.. :)

The next morning, Raizou was going to attend his school opening ceremony, but he's curious because he couldn't find Kon anywhere in the house. When he asked Konoe who had just came home bringing something covered with blanket about Kon's whereabout, instead of getting a clue, he was kicked out by Konoe to go to school :LOL: Ouka offered a ride using traditional chariot to take Raizou to school. At home, the thing covered by blanket was actually Kon, who was "selling" his kami-sama ability to take a bad person's injuries. At school, Raizou suddenly remembered he forgot something and Ouka had his servant brought Raizou heading home. At home, the yakuza-liked guy from the previous day barged into Kon's room and wanted Kon to heal him. Kon ran for help to Waki's room but catched by the guy and stabbed his palm on the floor. The guy spit on a big black box Waki kept in his room and prepared for making intercourse with Kon, when suddenly Raizou barged in, puched the guy, and took Kon away. Waki who later came saw the guy's spit on his black box and slashed the guy right away.

In Kon's room, Raizou asked why Kon did such a thing like selling his body and tortured himself. Kon bursted out his anger that since he had no master, it's better to disappear (became ash) at least after doing something rather than nothing at all. Raizou felt Kon's sadness and remembered what the fox guy told him last night. He cried for Kon, telling him that he should never think himself as nothing. Although Kon was just a kami who had no life, but he had feeling, talked, and moved like a normal human being. Flustered, Kon left the room and wishing Waki would understand his situation, but he eavesdropped Waki talking to Genma, who found customers for Kon, that Kon would not taking any customers again. The fox guy came to Raizou and explained the relation between kami-sama and kotodama-sama, that if a kami didn't have a kotodama-sama or couldn't find the replacement, he would became an ordinary white paper, like a wide-eye coma state in human being. Raizou who suddenly had something in mind chased after the depressed Kon and brought him to Waki, asking to be Kon's master ("Please give Kon to me!").

The next rainy day, all kami-sama suffered from rainy-season fatique since kami-sama were weak to rain. When Raizou was washing clamshells (asari) for dinner's miso soup, suddenly the doorbell rang and came Shoui, Mitou's oldest son. He right away asked to "hand over Asari to me!". Raizou who was holding the clams bowl offered it to Shoui and got smacked *poor Raizou*.. :LOL: Raizou didn't have any clue at all that "Asari" was someone's name who turned out to be the fox guy. As he took off his mask, Konoe and the others started to realize his presence, thanks to Waki's special mask and clothing that could hide someone's presence. Since this only affected the Mitous and their kami-sama, Raizou was the only one who could still see Asari.

The story shifted from Raizou x Kon to Shoui x Asari. Shoui asked Asari to go home with him but the latter refused. He even asked Shoui to forget him and get a new kami-sama. Asari also refused Shoui's intimacy which led to Shoui's confusement as Asari never refused him like that. Asari was previously Shoui's grandfather's kami-sama which later given to him. Since then Shoui cast a kotodama that the bound between them should not be broken, and up to now still claiming that he and Asari was bound by fate. At a time, Shoui heard Asari talking to Waki about being disappeared and turning to ash, and got very upset on this. While they were talking, suddenly a disaster came upon Shoui and Asari quickly covered Shoui, but Shoui pulled Asari away, shielded him, and got badly injured. Shoui prevented Asari for not doing that since "the one who gets hurt should be only me". Asari, nearly on tears, yelled why Shoui wouldn't let him to take the disaster, and ignoring Shoui, Asari still making intercourse to him to stop the bleeding. The reason why Asari came to Mitou house was to ask Waki to fix him since he couldn't heal Shoui properly anymore, but Shoui didn't care about it since he loved Asari so much so Asari shouldn't take any more wounds. Well, the two ended up happily and the next day Asari left the house borrowing the sleeping bag Raizou used to sleep in, so Raizou would share a bed with Kon (Smart idea, Asari!! *LOL*)

Second volume of ZE focused more on Raizou x Kon relationship. Kon started to make moves *well, unintentionally* to Raizou which caused Raizou's everday blushing (aww, how adorable!). Since Kon always thought people wanted to get advantage from his body, one night he allowed Raizou to do make his move. After some kissing, Raizou stopped and refused to continue since that had to be done with love. Raizou loved Kon and asked Kon his feeling. If Kon had no feeling to him, he better stopped. Kon, flustered, kicked Raizou out of bed and left the room. Poor Raizou, this happening was secretly eavesdropped by Konoe and Ouka *LOL* The next day Ouka tied and lashed Raizou for that 'stupidity'.. ^^;;

One day, Raizou prevented Kon from picking Waki's sake bottle right away from boiling water. Kon angered him and proved that he wouldn't injured from it "because afterall I'm a kami-sama". Raizou slapped Kon for thinking so low about himself. Raizou cared about Kon not because Kon was a kami-sama but because Kon was Kon, and because he loved Kon. Confused with the word "love", Kon ran to the yard and then being kidnapped by a woman named Ginka - the mother of Kon's designated kotodama-sama, Akimitsu. Ginka took Kon to meet a body laid on a bed fully covered by bandage, and blamed Kon for not healing Akimitsu. She imprisoned Kon, even broke Kon's foot so he couldn't escape. At the time of silence, Kon started to remember Raizou and even dreamed that Raizou picked him home.

At Mitou house, no one except Asari and Shoui bothered in helping Kon. Konoe protested Waki for not making such a move, since previously when Waki's kami-sama was kidnapped/taken away, he was almost half-crazed to get him back. Ouka didn't want to put Benio in any circumstances regarding Ouka -my opinion, it seems previously Benio belongs to Ginka before she got pregnant and lose her kotodama-power, and it seems Ginka treated Benio badly before - So in short, Shoui took care of Ginka and her guardian and use kotodama for erasing Akimitsu out of Ginka's memory. Shoui got injured for this kotodama, but later treated dearly by Asari (ooh, Asari was so seducting!). Raizou rescued Kon who confessed that at the time of loneliness he often dreamt about Raizou coming to rescue him, but after he woke up and realized it was all dream, he somehow felt very lonely. The 'Akimitsu' Ginka wanted Kon to heal was actually a manequin. Ginka who was half-insane after Akimitsu's death (cause by unproper use of kotodama, suggested by Ginka) mistook the manequin as Akimitsu and entirely denied the fact that Akimitsu had dead.

The next day, Kon woke up with Raizou sleeping on his bedside. Seeing how funny Raizou's way of sleeping, for the first time Kon laughed. They talked about the incident, and Raizou praised Kon for trying so hard because although he knew Akimitsu had died and the body was just a doll, he kept silent to protect Ginka's feeling, and that's probably something that only Kon who could do. "Kon-kun is absolutely kind, a kami-sama who is stronger than anyone". Inside Kon's mind, "Even though he has no kotodama power, but his words pierce deeply and resound within me. Pressing hard and at the end forgive me. Raizou... my kotoda-sama." For the first time Kon called Raizou by his name and kissed him. Raizou surprised and wondered if Kon became to love him. Kon himself didn't know but based on Raizou's explanation about how "love" was, Kon replied that he always thought about Raizou above anything else. Happy with Kon's confession, Raizou hugged Kon and they started to rabu-rabu. Kon then wondered if Raizou's hair down there was also golden blonde and lowered Raizou's pants and shocked to see Raizou's 'unbelievably big and long' thing *LOL* and kicked Raizou out of bed yelling "there's no way THAT BIG can enter me, you fool!" *dies laughing*. Shockened Raizou couldn't help but crying and being soothed by both Konoe and Ouka (I wonder if they eavesdropped on him again), telling him that kami's body was so soft, but if the legs spread wide, Raizou's could surely entered it. *dies again*

One day, Raizou asked Waki's permission to return to his village. After Raizou's departure, Konoe speculated that probably Raizou would not come back anymore. Hearing that, Kon remembered how these days after the "BIG thing" incident he always avoided Raizou whenever the latter tried to say something to him (Raizou's expression upon Kon's ignorance is pretty painful). At his grandma's grave, Raizou recalled his childhood memories with his grandma. His father married a foreigner and when they passed away, Raizou was raised by his grandma, to which the villagers often put pity on her to have troubled to raise her grandchild alone. Hearing that, Raizou decided to help his grandma so he's not burdening her again... until one day when he came home, his grandma coughed out blood.

After 2 hours walking, Raizou couldn't find any transporation or people whom he could ask help to get him to the city, until he met someone whose figure he knew well... Kon. Kon threw his bag to Raizou and yelled why Raizou left the house without saying anything to him. Suddenly the rain started falling and Raizou rushed taking Kon to a shelter. He panicly toweled Kon since he thought kami-sama was too weak to rain they would easily torn out when soaked (to which Kon stated that in fact kami was more resistance to rain than human). Raizou thought it was a coincidence they met there, but it turned out that Ouka put a transmitter among Raizou's belonging and gave the navigator system to Kon. Back then, Kon was so worried about Raizou so Asari encouraged him to chase after him since "we, kami, should be at our kotodama-sama's side". Kon kept questioning why Raizou left him without saying anything.. shouldn't they always be together or is it because Raizou avoided him and didn't need him anymore... to which Raizou's apologizing and soothing Kon. He only wanted to visit his grandmother's grave on her first anniversary of death. He however would return to Mitou house since he had nowhere to go again. As he recalled again when he ran while carrying her grandma to nearest hospital, Raizou cried.

*watch how Kon held Raizou's finger before and after Raizou's flashing back*

*This scene is very touching so I'm going to translate the last 2 pages anyway*
Raizou: *cried*
Kon: Raizou...
Raizou: *wipe his tears and smiling* Ah, it's not good to be carried away with memories..
Raizou: Ah, by the way, Kon-kun and the other kami-sama, do you have something to cry for?
Kon: ... I do.
Raizou: Eh? Is that true?
Kon: ... if Raizou died, I would probably cry
Raizou: *startled*
Kon: These times, I never be grateful to be a kami-sama even just once. But today for the first time, I'm grateful to be a kami so I won't die before you do. *grip Raizou's fingers* I will not leave you alone.
Raizou: Un.... Un... *Raizou cried while Kon rested his head on Raizou's shoulder*
Raizou: "Grandma, the one I fall in love with is not a human, but a very gentle kami-sama... a very important kami-sama. My beloved kami-sama.

Well, finally when the night came, it turned out that they had missed the latest bus so Kon *innocently* took Raizou to the nearest hotel which was a Love Hotel. Asari gave Kon enough money "in case there is something urgent".. *LOL* Raizou, panicked, finally followed Kon to the hotel and totally nervous. Meanwhile at Mitou house, Asari bet 1000 yen that Raizou would be a "man" that night, while Konoe bet that they would fail like the other time and this would be the end *dies laughing*.

Well in short, finally both of them got rabu-rabu, although at first Raizou doubted about how he could pass the night on the same bed with Kon. Kon dragged Raizou to do H but Raizou half refused since he thought Kon was afraid to do it. Kon then explained that it's not he was afraid but he was just surprised to see such a thing so BIG like that for the first time. *BWAHAHAHAHA* So finally they did it (Asari, you won the bet, right? :D)

Susu-chan's Birthday!!

2006-09-13T01:18:12Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHIBA SUSUMU-SAN!!!!!!!!!!
Lots of love from all of your fans!!!

I'm currently devoured deeper and deeper each day into Chiba's haven. *heart*

Today, my long developed project *hopefully* will finish today!!! *YAY!*
I've been concentrating on this project recently so I couldn't be active in LJ for a moment.

Also my parents will take a tour to China next Month and this will be their first trip abroad without us, so I was kinda worried and gathering information from forums and websites about China. Thus I may be inactive until the end of the week. By the way, the tour will be 16 days long and I'll be all alone at home.. do you have any suggestions on what to do? *grin*

moccy @ 2006-09-08T07:39:00

2006-09-08T01:08:00Z

I once stumbled upon a discussion about seiyuu's smoking and drinking status. I need further confirmation for these.

Ishida Akira: Not smoking, not drinking, living a very healthy and neat life.
Iwata Mitsuo: Terrible smoker, almost always had smoke on his hand
Ishikawa Hideo: Frequent smoker
Ichijou Kazuya: Frequent smoker
Inoue Kazuhiko: Smoker
Okiayu Ryutarou: currently not smoking (could be a long time ago but it seems he had stopped)
Onozaki Masaya: Not smoking and dislike smokers
Itou Kentarou: Smoking and drinking
Ueda Yuuji: Absolute smoker
Koyasu Takehito: Not smoking but sometimes appeared with smoking pose (holding smoke near his mouth)
Sasaki Nozomu: Previously smoking, but managed to stop since 2000.
Seki Toshihiko: Smoker
Seki Tomokazu: Absolute smoker!!! Anytime anywhere.. T_T
Takagi Wataru: Smoker
Chiba Susumu: It seems he's not smoking
Tobita Nobuo: Sometimes smoking
Hayami Shou: Smoker
Hirata Hiroaki: Smoker and alcoholic
Hiyama Nobuyuki: Sometimes smoking
Horiuchi Kenyuu: Smoker
Miki Shinichirou: Smoker
Midorikawa Hikaru: Smoker but not too often
Morikawa Toshiyuki: Previously smoking, but managed to stop.
Yamaguchi Kappei: Smoker
Sakurai Takahiro: Not smoking
Suzumura Kenichi: not smoking but drinking like crazed!
Suzuki Chihiro: Not smoking, hate alcohols, living a neat and clean life
Suwabe Junichi: Not smoking and dislike when people smokes near him
Toriumi Kousuke: Smoking like crazed
Takahashi Hiroki: Smoker
Miyata Kouki: Not smoking
Takahashi Naozumi: Smoker
Morikubo Showtarou: Smoker
Yoshino Hiroyuki: Not smoking
Nojima Hirofumi: Not smoking

YAY!!! I'm very relieved some seiyuus I respect don't smoke! Especially Ishida. Once at Saiyuki Reload Revolution when he showed some pictures of his collection and room, I thought "wow, it seems so neat". We can judge from his appearance: simple, neat, clean (always with an ordinary and simple but neat hair style). I hope Chiba is indeed not smoking, although for once I thought he did due to that husky voice. For Seki Tomokazu, I knew long ago that he's smoking but still am upset to find that he smokes like crazed almost non-stop!

Well, at least Sakupyon, Miyata, Suwabe, and SuzuKen doesn't smoke (although SuzuKen is an alcoholic).
Does anyone know how's FukuJun status?

Kaze ni notte

2006-09-06T14:37:33Z

I was initially didn't put attention on this song too much, until one day my friend said it was a tribute for tsunami victims (on December 2004). As I read the lyric carefully, it's really touching. It's kind of prayer for those victims (represented with "a boy" in this lyric).

But how could you conclude it was for tsunami?
- a boy drifting in dark sea
- maddened sky
- a disaster in which after that birds can sing again and greeneries are blossomming.
- December sky

Kaze ni Notte
by: Janne da Arc

Sotto kaze ni notte shiroi hana to inori wo todoketai
Kitto hoshi ga futte sora no kanata mata atarashii inochi umare

(Softly I ride the wind, want to send prayer along with the white flowers
Surely along with the rain of stars, at the distant sky another new life will be born)

Kurai umi wo tadayou shounen
Nami ga utta komoriuta machi wo nemuraseta

(A boy was drifting in the dark sea
The waves were singing a lullaby, putting the city to sleep)

Minami no shima kara kasuka ni nagareru [rekuiemu]
Yume mo omoide mo negai sae mo... nomikomare

(From the southern island, a requiem was faintly flowing
Swallowing dreams, memories, and even wishes)

Sotto kaze ni notte shiroi hana to inori wo todoketai
Memai ga suru hodo ao sugita ano sora...

(Softly I ride the wind, want to send prayer along with the white flowers
That sky is so blue I feel dizzy)

Kanashii iro shita kumo ga nagarete
Toketa jikan wa sugite yuku hora suna no you ni

(The clouds colored in sadness is streaming
Time melted away so fast, look, like sands)

Itsuka kono machi ni mata kodomo-tachi no egao ga
Modotta toshitemo ano ko wa mou kaeranai

(Someday at this city, although the children's smile will return,
That boy won't return anymore

Sotto yoru wo matte hitori ni natte chichi wa shizuka ni naku
Yosete kaesu namioto tada kanashikute...
Namida chitte haha wa umi e ano ko wo oikakete
Akaneiru no sora nagarete shimau kara...

(Softly, waiting for the night, becoming alone, the father was quietly wept
The approaching sound of waves was only bring sadness
In tears, the mother ran after the boy to the sea
Because the crimson red sky had streamed away)

Zutto yume ni nemuri yume ni ikiru ikutsu mono tomoshibi
Daremo inai umi me wo toji yasuraka ni...
Tori ga utai midori ga saki jidai ga nagaretemo
Juu-ni gatsu no sora wasure wa shinai kara...

(Always sleeping in the dream, living in the dream, there were numbers of lights
At the sea where there is no one, I close my eyes, it feels so calm
The birds are singing, the greens are blooming, the era is flowing
Because we won't forget the December sky)

Motto kaze wo kudasai tsuyoi kaze wo ano ko no tamashii ga
Takaku noboru you ni sora e kaereru you ni...
Kaze ni notte shiroi hana to inori wo todoketai
Memai ga suru hodo ao sugita ano sora...

(Please give me more wind, a strong wind so the boy's spirit
Will rise high and return to the sky
I ride the wind and want to send prayers along with the white flower
That sky is so blue I feel dizzy)

Sekaijuu no kono inori todokimasu you ni

(So that this prayer can be sent through out the whole world)

Translated by Moccy
* please credit me if you wanted to use the translation elsewhere

moccy @ 2006-09-04T12:29:00

2006-09-04T06:31:53Z

Kabelvision's internet connection went down since last Saturday *grumble* The backbone fiber optical cable was burnt and need to be replaced. Just why this happened when I needed it.. *grumble grubmle*

Last Friday, I had another meeting discussing about a new project.. oh God, please help me.. I haven't done with the previous!! I no longer have time between works to update the journal or replying mails... T_T I'm desperately need skill and willpower for self-leading and self-time-managing.

Friday night me and my family went to Disney Lantern Festival at Gelora Bung Karno. We arrived there around 9 p.m. and still very crowded (but not as jammed as Saturday night). There was a welcoming atrium with lanterns from Finding Nemo's and Little Mermaid's character. To the left (by crossing a short bridge), there were stages of Cars, Mickey-Minnie, Lilo & Stitch, and more. The stages here were quite small unless for Cars (which also the most crowded). We then proceed to the right area of the atrium which appeared to be dimmer. There were vaster area of each series, such as Lion King, Winnie the Pooh, Alladin, Snow White, Bug's Life, etc, and at the end there was a Disney castel. Well, overall the lanterns were sure made with great budget but nothing too impressive for a festival.

I hadn't seen my nephew, Nathan, for 2 weeks, and very surprised to see him grew that BIG in just 2 weeks. Last time I met him was when he's still 7 kgs. In just 2 weeks, he gained 2 kgs *faint*.. but he's such a pretty boy! He even smiled between his dreams.. aaaaw, so adorable!! He was baptised yesterday and as the youngest, he was chosen to be presented before Holy Mary (although he was the youngest, he's the biggest!). He was sooooo calm during the ceremony, unlike the other babies who were crying so loud as if rejecting the blessing ^^;;.

Lately, I've been drowned deeply into Chiba Susumu haven.

It seems my fangirling over Chiba is more acute than my fangirling over Ishida Akira. Ishida-san, I'm still fangirling you faithfully, but forgive me for letting my heart flew to Chiba-kun these days.. *bow* Like when I was first fallen into Ishida haven, I'm now crazily searched for any Chiba-casted anime/drama. Maybe because Chiba is not a too well-known seiyuu (which only often referred as "the one who is voicing Sai") compared with Ishida-san, for his fangirl, to find him participating in an anime is far more interesting and makes you goes "Waaah, it's really Chiba!!" when the character appeared and you shortly recognized his unique, husky voice.

Well, I'm not blaming those who didn't know "Chiba Susumu", since I was part of them, too. I only knew "Chiba Susumu" on the cast but never put attention to his voice until I was addicted by Asari (ZE). Since then I've been faithfully finding and listening to his dramas and can't avert my ears to hear dramas he wasn't in.

I didn't realize at all he was Sai on Hikaru no Go until I dug my Hikaru no Go cds again last week. Watching HikaGo will never be the same again.. I can only hear Sai.. :)

And he was Hiead from Megami Kouhosei? Well, I'm not blaming myself for this since I watched Megami Kouhosei long time ago before I fell down into seiyuu fandom. Such a waste that Hiead seldomly talk but once he spoke out, I felt "aah, it's really Chiba-kun".

My uttermost surprise was to find out that he was on Bleach!! Honestly, since the Bount arc started as a filler story, I didn't interested in Bleach anime anymore because the Arrancar arc on the manga is lots more interesting. Especially Ichinose Maki.. I kinda hate him and never mind to search who his seiyuu is... aaaaah, watashi no baka!!! I will dig all Bleach episodes with Ichinose in it.. not because I became to like him, but since it's Chiba, I could forgive him.. *grin*

Lately I've been eternally repeating Papa to Mira series, not because I like Kyousuke x Mira pairing, but addicted to Takayuki x Kazuki pairing. Their pairing is exactly what I like from a BL drama.. angst, betrayal, seduction, rejection, denial, love, etc. I usually not very into Koyasu's seme, but I adored him in this drama.. and Chiba's Kazuki is totally adorable! An all-round character is always the best.. he can molest and be molested.. :LOL:

Sometimes I wonder how those BL seiyuu doing the H-scenes perfectly. They're not just faking panting, but screaming, resisting, and sometimes enjoying it SO WELL you feel like witnessing a real H-scene. I was once trying to watch JAV video, and not interested at all since those H voices in BL were more provoking and assuring that they're REALLY DOING the H scene. The SFX along the H scene increased the tense and made you nosebleed.

moccy @ 2006-08-30T09:53:00

2006-08-30T02:54:32Z

Listening BL drama during works is not a healthy idea.. :)
But if you couldn't live your day without it, I suggest listen to it at your free time or else you may not able to concentrate as your mind more distracted in understanding the drama more than your works.

Listening before you sleep is not healty as well.
It makes you want to have more you're finally unable to sleep early.. ^^;;

Listening in the crowds is not heathy at all.
To understand the lines (and to enjoy the beautiful voices) you must put a high volume which is not good for your hearing.
Back then when I listened to Ishida Akira's drama like crazed, my ears started to be unbalanced. The left ear was kinda lost 10% of clarity compared with the right one. Thank God it's recovered right now.. ^^;;

I found myself often spaced out these days since I'm more enjoying the drama and hard to pull myself from the story back in track to what I've been doing. I recently listened to old dramas I've been familiar with, so I don't have to intepret the story again.

I'm really have to recovered from acute drama CD addict. At least know when to listen to so I can finish the abandoned tasks.

Review: ZE

2006-08-28T16:03:15Z

* This review is dedicated to my niece, Airy-chan, who shared the same adoration to Shimizu-sensei's works

Introduction

ZE
Original work: manga
Artist: Shimizu Yuki
# of volume: 3
# of drama CD: 1 (the 2nd will be released on 2007)

I first grabbed ZE drama CD solely because it's a Yuki Shimzu's work. I didn't know even a glimpse about the story and not paying attention to the casts. First time hearing the drama I still don't quite understand the situation, so I decided to download the scanlation (volume 1 only). I was instantly fallen in love with the story. It's not merely smex, but has strong plot and strong character development. The angst portrayed perfectly.. as you can expect from Shimizu-sensei. All the drama casts were perfect so the drama was so alive. Since then, I've been addicted with ZE and read up to book 2 (and still expecting to get book 3).

Story *warning, detailed summary and full spoiler ahead*

Shichikawa J. (John) Raizou had just lost his beloved grandma and since he had no place to live, he worked as a housekeeper at Mitou household. Not known to him, Mitou family had ability to use kotodama, where one's word would become reality. Thus they often use this as ability to curse their opponent. It's not that kotodama could be used recklessly. As the result of using kotodama, the kotodama-shi (kotodama caster) would suffer injuries depended on how destructive the kotodama they had casted. Often their opponents also repelled the kotodama to send it back to the kotodama-shi. To protect the live of the kotodama-shi, a kami-sama (paper doll) was created to receive the disaster sent to the kotodama-shi and healed the injuries.

The kami-sama appeared exactly like a normal human, unless they were weak to rain since however they were made 100% from pulp. When the kami-sama died, it would return to white paper. Since a kami-sama was made for a kotodama-shi, being useful for the kotodama-shi was their reason for existance. Once the kotodama-shi died or lost their ability to use kotodama (happened to woman who lost their ability once they born a child), the kami-sama would be assigned to a new master and forgot their entire memories of the previous master. The kami-sama healed their kotodama-shi by interacting body fluids... thus could be done either by kissing, licking, or smexing.. *grin* The kami-sama would heal the master's wound and took the wound with them as the result of the healing process. The kami-sama and the kotodama-shi had to be on the same gender (the ancestor of puppet-master, what a brilliant idea you had!)

Now back to the Mitous. The Mitous consisted of :
- Waki, the puppet master (creator of the kami-sama).
- Mitou Ouka (a very masculine woman), the second daughter of Mitou, and her kami-sama, Benio.
- Mitou Kotoha (the underaged boy who was very fond of ice cream), the youngest Mitou, and his hetare kami-sama, Konoe.
- Kon, the young black-haired kami-sama

First time Raizou entered the Mitous, he was scolded by Konoe for having such a strong name (the kanji "rai" means "thunder") but a bit clumsy in appearance. He was a little shy (made you want to tease him), very humble, very kind, warm-smiled, happy, positive thinker, and very honest.. a very typical grandma's son. He's very tall and blonde. The warmest welcome came from Kotoha and the coldest was from Kon (since it was usually Kon who preparing the meals). Although Kon treated him coldly, Raizou adored Kon and Waki put them in the same room. Raizou was very skilled in cooking, but only Kotoha who happily ate his first prepared dinner. For a moment Raizou thought he was hated by people at Mitous since everyone refused to eat the food he initially prepared with confidence. Suddenly a guy wearing fox mask appeared and accompanied him taking dinner and disappeared then he was doing the washing. That night Raizou promised his deceased grandma that he would do his best, no matter what people thought about him.

The next day Konoe scolded Raizou for his sillly shirt and Waki asked Kon to accompany Raizou shopped for some proper clothings. At the city, a yakuza-liked man approached Kon who was waiting for Raizou, recognizing Kon as a kami-sama. When Raizou appeared, Kon took him away and left. That night when everyone's finally gathered to have dinner, for the first time Raizou witnessed how Konoe's arm torn off (and as a result from receiving a repelled kotodama. The shocked Raizou rolled over the floor screaming "The arm flew off!!! GRANDMAAA!!!!!" *dies laughing* Thus, the Mitous revealed the world of kotodama and the existance of kami-sama, and since kami-sama didn't take any food, Raizou was relieved that they didn't take his food because they hated him.

It also appeared that Kon had lost his designated kotodama-shi, thus he personally doubted his proof of existance. The only thing he felt worth of was when he could do something for others, such as preparing meals, taking care of household, etc, which now had been done by Raizou. Thus he rejected Raizou, mistakenly thought that Raizou saw him as a hinderance, which in fact Raizou treasured Kon dearly and he only did his job as household. Then the fox guy appeared again and asked Raizou to take care of Kon since "that kid doesn't seem to think of himself as anything".

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Waaah, I'm so tired.. I'll continue tomorrow...
*I'm no good in making a 'summarized' summary.. it always end up as a LONG summary.. :(

Chiba Susumu

2006-08-16T16:04:41Z

When I first re-heard Chiba Susumu in Hanayome series, I still haven't decided whether I was really captivated by his voice that time or simply because I love Tennou x Tsubaki couple. But as I listened to ZE drama CD today, I've decided: it's Chiba Susumu's factor.

He's the second queen I adore after Yusa Koji-sama (follows by Kamiya Hiroshi). While Yusa-sama has supreme dominating charisma over his uke or seme, Chiba is more lively, playful, and cheerful. His Tsubaki (Hanayome series) never bored me and makes me wanting more of him. He also has great H voice, simply eroppoi.. Kamiyan lacks the lively factor and his domination can't beat Yusa-sama, but still he makes all of his characters the queen of the show.

I want more Chiba.

Night Head Genesis

2006-08-11T02:53:57Z

Reasons for watching Night Head Genesis:

1. There's Ishida Akira (as Naoya -the little brother).

2. There's Morimori, too (as Naoto -Naoya's protective brother).

3. With Ishida and Morimori in such close relationship, it's MoriIshi, fangirls!

4. Lots of ~~Ishida's~~ Naoya's screaming in pain (yes, Ishida-san, you are the BEST for screaming out your character's emotion).

5. Naoya is very clingy to Naoto and so helpless, makes you want to hug him.

6. Naoya is very cute. Although Naoto is more manly (he's the older brother after all), he's too reckless sometimes you want to shout "BAKA!" at him).

7. But thanks to Naoto recklesness, there's lot of Naoya's "Niisan, mou yamete! Yamete!" (this perverted fangirl has special interest to Ishida's "yamete!")

8. Lots of ~~Ishida's~~ Naoya's crying.

9. Morimori's Naoto shares some resemblances to Conrad (Kyou Kara Maou), but while Conrad is one perfect protective guy with good strategy, Naoto is much reckless and confused.

10. Naoya's "Kowai yo!" and "Itai, niisan!".

11. Although there's no incest relationship, but with MoriIshi, it's still slashable for fangirls out there who are expecting more *evilish grin*

12. Did I mention Naoya's screaming and crying?

Okay, I admit it. I'm too ~~Ishida~~ Naoya-centric *grin*

moccy @ 2006-08-03T21:22:00

2006-08-03T14:22:30Z

Another journal?

Yes, my other laziness.
But I guess I can keep up with LJ more than the other 2 (pitas and Friendster). Pitas is more flexible and easy to use but creating a new layout takes time and I definitely has no time for it. Friendster is too simple.

LJ is simple and allow us to join several communities and participating right away. Anyway, still haven't find a good user pic.. hmm...