Writing for goodness

Yesterday, a local talkshow broadcast invited some truly amazing people who suffered rare syndromes which attacked the neural system. Many of them were told by their doctors to regulary writing to keep their neural system active. I then realized, it has been a long time since I last write my mind out. I was a regular writer and quite well-known as a good fiction writer. My teacher, friends, and parents thought I would be a writer, but as I immersed myself in the world of internet, I became less active in writing, until finally I stopped. I even stopped blogging since I was too lazy. The last time I wrote something was for the NTU's written essay.

But the impact is real. My brain was slower in processing words I sometimes lost with what I was going to say. I had the idea in my head but unable to express it in words, be it in Bahasa or English. I think faster than I speak and sometimes I was unable to arrange the words properly unless my brain was at its peak. I was quite shocked by this fact. I wonder, where were my ability in words gone? Yesterday's talkshow gave me an instant realization of the importance of writing, especially a journal. I'm not really a journal writer, because journal should be short and informal, but once I wrote, I just couldn't stop and my style of writing was always formal. The writings always felt like an essay. To be honest, I truly enjoy writing, be it an email, journal, or essay.

Nonetheless, now I realize how important a journal is to keep the track of our daily routinity. As I read some of my diary entries from high school (which I wrote for only a short period), I found it's very nostalgic as I almost forgot those old good days and what I was years ago.

Today I've come with a resolution. I must conquer my laziness and start writing a daily journal. Since I think and wrote faster than I speak, especially in English, I want to try speaking out my mind as I write to improve the fluency in English. I know I have the ability; it was once awaken but I put it into a long, deep sleep for years, and it needs to be awaken once more for good. This entry marks the first step of this resolution. I'm not expecting many people reading my journal, but I'd like to share my thoughts, just in case this might be helping those who share the same problem.